I'm back from a long break. Not that long, but it seems that for the past few weeks i've been doing so many things that it feels like i've been away for quite a while.

I shall summarize the trips:

Genting trip was fun (:

Lame, but fun. (:

Singapore trip was, happy, and sad.

(: Didn't shop much, wasn't in the mood.

And now i'm back. Halfway packing my stuff. I'm excited.

Sigh blogging is boring.

1. Visa approved.

2. Still worried about scholarship.

3. Genting from Mon to Wed.

4. Singapore and Johor from Wed to Mon.

5. Shopping.

6. Packing.

7. Exhausted. :(

I do hope to get everything done before I go genting and singapore.

It has been a tiring tiring week. Today I did my medical check up. No blood test. (: LALALA. Gembira sangat when I found out. Went all over the place in KL buying ISIC and Enrich Grads cards just to get a total of 30 kg when I travel by MAS, which I got, in the end. So all's good.

The best thing about a non-low cost flight is the FOOD! (:

I love aeroplane food I think it's the most amazing thing ever. XD

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That's all I feel like saying. Bye (:

But the thing is it's going to be a good 4 years of my life. I should choose according to the quality of those 4 years right? Or the quality of the later years? Well, anyway, I feel that in Australia, I would have more fun. I would feel more at home/comfortable as I know I definitely have friends in almost all the important/popular states in Australia, and two very close friends in ANU. That gives me the support i need. Also, I take into account the course itself. A double degree as compared to a Maths degree. I have no intentions on pursuing a Masters yet, so which means that as of now, ANU is a more viable option. I don't even have to mention distance from home. And most importantly the culture. Canberra is more of a town, not city. Not really a town, but it's definitely much less city than places like Melbourne, Sydney. We don't even have to bring London into the picture. I like that culture. I'm not a city kid. I'm more of a .. town kid. Although pontian is kind of an extreme town though. Maybe Canberra will be like Petaling Jaya, and that's good enough for me (:

Between ANU and Imperial, if I don't have scholarship, I will go ANU.

If I do get a scholarship for any country, I will go ANU.

The only changing factor is IF I get a scholarship only to go Imperial. Will I then choose to continue on at ANU self-funded, or withdraw and go to Imperial? I'll cross the bridge when I come to it I guess, if there even is a bridge.

I pray that I have made the right decision.

And thanks for those who are praying for me (:

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Tomorrow's the ANU pre departure briefing! I have loads of questions to ask! (: I'm so excited at going to university. When I was in like secondary school and all, I would always admire the older 20plus people in church especially. How mature and how independent they were. And I always wondered how I would be like when I'm at that age and I'm working. But anyway technically speaking I'm still 18, going on 19.

When I graduate I'll be 23. If I do honours I'll be 24.

Hey that's actually a good age (: Perfect age if I want to be married by 30. I feel like I'm planning my whole future already, though meeting the right person really depends on God.

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With all these things in my head now, it's no wonder I have no energy for any relationship right now. Think University would be a good time for me to really figure out what I want especially in my years just after I graduate. Which will be a long time more, 4 years. (:

I can't wait to start packing. Actually I can start already. It's only a mere 3 weeks plus. And since I'm going to be rather busy with Genting coming up and hopefully a short Singapore trip, I think I should start planning on stuff to bring. My limit is only 25 kg though. Do people ship things across? (:

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Insomnia is coming back due to all this stress and excitement.

Maybe after the interview next week i won't be that stressed and I can have a good sleep.

And I bet all the people my age now are more concerned with Christiano Ronaldo's 80 million pounds (..!!!..) transfer.

And Miss California getting fired. XD

I should start concentrating on issues such as the very silly debate about Maths and Science in English and the pass english to pass SPM thing.

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I wish I was as talkative now as I was around 5 years ago. I wish I was as thick-skinned as I was then. I wish I was as outspoken as I was back then. But I'm not. Which is not good because I'm talking to little now. I don't like talking. And I do not like interviews. I don't know why people think that because I used to debate last time I can talk well. Yeah, I know, pretty logical right. But bear in mind the style of my debate last time was memorize and talk. I didn't do well in those inpromptu speeches. I stumble and often mumble. I think I have some pyschological fear of speaking. I'm serious okay. Like sometimes I don't like to talk over the phone either. In fact, I am shy to talk over the phone. Or afraid. Whichever. And I have to mentally prepare myself before I call up firms/anyone for that matter regarding any official matters or what not. I can't just, call people up. It's weird.

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WOW. I just paid my deposit this morning.

And its 1pm now and I got my Confirmation of Enrolment from the Australian Government already. I'm impressed! Now I can do my visa (:

BYE!

SKY HIGH.

Or, SUN HIGH.

Sun's further.

So i'm going to ANU.

And I'll stay there for 4 years, unless ...

And the least you friends can do is give me support.

Right?

Yeah. Thanks for all the support to those who did support me (:

And I'm still stressed,

so don't come and try to change my decision.

I'll taekwondo-kick your nose.

I'll be busy busy till next wednesday.

Busy working hard, praying, and hoping.

Freaking scary. Okay la not that bad coz i had like 3 people all 2 years older than me sitting in the car giving me directions. Kaichi was rather calm though on the passenger seat next to me, hand on handbrake but he didn't have to use it XD. Think I know when to cut lane and all now. I think (:

Anyway, this weekend was quite hectic.

My relatives were in town and we went to Kuala Selangor for seafood and fireflies. Waited like 1 hour plus just for 20 minutes of christmas tree viewings. The fireflies are quite nice, but it was full moon and it was too bright so it wasn't too obvious.

TODAY, (: we're going to watch terminator.

And then makan malam together-gether.

I dreamt that the sime darby interviewers asked truckloads of questions that I didn't know how to answer. :( I think I should go and read the newspapers now. :(

Just finished applying for Imperial's accomodation.

Why hasn't anu/nus replied about the accomodation huh?

So fun to find out where you're staying and all. XD

Bounce bounce bounce! (:

2. Technology is making people lazy. You know how in ancient times they write letters and scrolls and put them onto pigeons where the pigeons would fly to whereever to pass on the message? Or even runners who help deliver messages through the word of mouth or parchments? Well right now such communication is reduced to emails, textings, and facebook. It's kinda sad. I'm talking about myself actually. Before, I used to write letters and have penpals and all. Now, I'm so lazy even to pick up my phone to text a friend. I procrastinate because typing those few sentences on the phone just seems like such a chore. Why am I so lazy? Even emails, I take forever to reply them. (btw sorry.) Technology makes us lazy! And if they continue to develop self-steering vehicles, self-washing dishes, self-cleaning bathroom, self-making bed, and self-writing laptops (wow.) we will become fat lazy sumos who just sit around ordering machines to do what used to be simple daily chores. I wonder, if life would lose its meaning then.

3. I have so much mixed feelings for Singapore. I love it and yet I hate it. It's great and yet it's not. It's so dilemma-ish. And I also have mixed feelings for ANU. It sounds great and yet it doesn't. And, surprise surprise, Imperial as well. It sounds nice but not really. I need something that sounds more appealing than it doesn't, and something that sounds more appealing than all the rest. Currently you know what that something is? It's working in kumon full time (: for the rest of my life, opening a pasar malam stall selling all my favourite food/things, and also writing. I used to want to do journalism but then I realized that my writing skills suck, and so does my language. It used to be better though, now that I have stopped reading tons and tons of storybooks, my english has gone down the drain and even my grammar is kinda freaking me out. Help! Someone talk to me in some intellectual way. Prepare me for interviews as well (: And really, I really do like writing. (: I have a few short stories somewhere in some computers. Sadly I can't find them. :(

4. Who has more ego? Asians or caucasians? Guys or girls? Ahh I believe the answer to the latter question is quite obvious there's no denying that guys are the one with humongous egos. Especially those in power. Their pride is like, a big giant fiery red ball that doesn't go away. If you throw water at it it grows bigger. .. Okay that doesn't make sense but yeah you get what I mean, I hope. As for asians or caucasians, I have no idea. Maybe I'll get this question answered when I do choose to go either Canberra or London or my studies. But then again as Mr. Adrian Bell has taught us, the answer depends on a few factors: about what, the environment, the age, the background. And also that we can't take an extreme stand is this and there is no absolute answer. So, conclusion? Everyone has pride. XD

The 4 paragraphs above was what I was thinking when chatting/emailing/facebook/texting 4 different people today.

How do we differentiate friends, and really true friends?

And why is education so important really?

I can just rare chickens and sell them and I can earn much more than if i come out fresh from uni with a mathematics degree.

And like, why are people so mean?

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Eventhough I knew that guy was the bad guy, I still fell awfully proud when he landed from the parachute (: I think coz he's kinda goodlooking. He's the same guy who acted in The Island, and I totally loved him there. (:

Okay fine I'm not that shallow. It was an okay movie, I expected less for a dan brown book movie. I would say job well done as compared to da vinci, probably because this book is also different, the plot itself is more action packed as compared to da vinci. More killings in this story, horrifying and disgusting killings might I add. Especially the one where he was 'earth'ed to death. I was disapointed that they changed the last branding though, thought it would be the four words combined just like the book. Wonder why they didn't want to use that, too much metal involved probably? Is metal expensive nowadays? 

Seriously, to those who think the movie is good, if you haven't read the book, please go and read it. It's so interesting and exciting and everything awesome packed into a small awesome book which you can read and reread over and over again and it still gives you the same thrill.

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So, wolverine done,

angels and demons done,

Still haven't watched startrek, don't think will have a chance to catch it on the big screen;

and also terminator.

Anything else?

I don't really like to pay like 10 bucks to watch comedies or sappy romantic stories. Rather wait for the dvds. Pirated, obviously, don't even have to wait.

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I have no idea how the doctors can tahan that thing in their ear when it is like so sensitive! Just s simple knock hurts my ears. And joanna's stethoscope is pink in colour lol.

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Busy weekend ahead. (: Yay to fun-ness.

Boo to once a month girl thingy.

Toodles.

It was fun although my mind was on something else. But I shan't let things ruin my day/week. (:

Because today I received an email from Sime Darby calling for the last interview on 16th June. Pray hard for me okay. Coz if i  do well i'll get a scholarship to go either Imperial or ANU! Then I won't have to go back to Singapore, coz I actually am looking for a different environment. (: Different culture. 

And at the same time ANU has a pre departure briefing on the 13th june. I think I shall go just in case I decide to go there. (: I hope they let me change my course to bachelor of actuarial science + bachelor of econs. 

Sigh. :( Yawn. EUREKA! (: